feel so empty
there is nothing to do at home
studying feels so boring-the basic theory of driving book
reading devil wears prada
still so boring
jia hui never reply me
jing yu also
so bored
repeated bored so many times
i am still bored
everybody just returned from overseas
not been using computer for days
so bored
drama shows become mundane
someone talk to me please
so bored
help!!
that's walton chua fyi w oversize specs! haha!
for those who cared, thank you so much!!!
and i didnt know got people like chang soo lik will read this i-called-stupid blog..
hahah!!
really bored everyday except yesterday, went out to make spectacles and waste money. it's a once in a year thing with my father, so we dun care.. hahah!!! everybody would expect a mother to do this, but no. it's my dad. haha!
bored till 4th jan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bored now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RAWR!!
i think i'm going to make everybody be angry of me..
haiz..
tactful girl tactful. twist and turn and twist again.. or just shut urself up you stupid idiot! [talking to myself] dun be angry of me.. i'm scolding myself.
it just isnt me anymore, i think.
been sick since bio paper. and been really not me since then.
pardon and forgive please.
people come and go. who can you stay with for ever? nobody dear.
just give up and carry on with life. but with no hatred please.
argh!!!
yah i'm free. nothing to do until jan.
but just feel like going out with a purpose that is not just for one action [returning the gc] that's why i've not been returning it.
too frustrated with friendship.
it comes with sadness and overcoming the sadness eh?
although there may be lots and lots of happiness but the things that you remember the deepest are usually the unhappiness and the conflicts. can you just forget it? hope so.
to me, tried and said "forget alrdy" but really, i cant forget every single one of them. everybody knows it right?
so, sorry for all the harm i've ever done to you. i've never hated anyone of you. except my mother[she's my most dislike person in my life] i was born as her child to bao chou..
but still, all this hatred with her will go to peace. it's nearly impossible to forget but it's ever so easy to forgive.
haiz, hope i can be not as easily swayed by all the emotions, people, and everything, like what my cousin says. but it's really very very hard now, not that i dun want to. need to continue to grow up and undergo more things till i can be as strong as her.
those people who shows that they are strong and happy on the outside are usually those who arent on the inside. same as the other way round. that's what i heard and felt it's true.
ever cried over friendships?
many nights. do you?
looking through my past posts, it really seems that people do mature and people do change. it's a way of life.
although most of us dislike difficulties, we still have to face it and it helps us become better of ourselves.
so, let's move on and strive to become a better person! =DDD
=P actually, i dunno how to end that para.. soo.. hahah!
wow!!
birthday eating craze~ confirm fat liao.. hahaha!!
ok, i didnt celebrate on my actual birthday, but i celebrated one day before it.. same as last year..
first stop..
zhiwei, jia hui, esther, and lee keat came over to muah house!
was totally not surprised! zhiwei, you've failed surprising me! just like me failing to surprise you.. haha!! we cant do surprises unless the person just woke up.. hahaha!!
how do you surprise people when you call out my name to find my house~
CHOCOLATE CAKE! HUI CHEN ON CAN DRINK! CAMWHORE OF THE MOST UNGLAM PERSON! YOONA CARD! WATCH! BUTTER CHOCOLATE "MASK"! and THE 18 LAYERS of NEWSPAPER!!!!!! hahaha!! qi si le..
THANK YOU LOADS
MAN GIRLS! =D
then..
out of the house with cousin huiyi, cousin ah wen and daddy to take cake and ntuc..
it was a show! we met an undecisive driver, a stupid one who only knows how to argue with people and loses. and malay/indian guy. sorry, i'm racist. that guy was fighting over parking lots which he obviously couldnt get. and he even bang onto another person's car, not giving his IC no, not paying, not calling the police. only argues. haha!!
my father was the first one who scolded him, although he;s not the driver. then ah wen, then hui yi and the person who got his car bang. it's his most unlucky day ever.. who tell him got that kind of stupid attitude and a head with a peabrain.
so,after collecting everything, we WENT TO THE POLICE STATION!
for the first time in 17 years 364 days of my life! was there to lodge a report about the stupid guy. stayed until 730pm la.. dou shi na ge stupid indian/malay guy hai de.
went home to BBQ and cut cake!
who could imagine inside a HDB flat can bbq!
BANANA CAKE! VEGETARIAN AND NON-VEGETARIAN BBQ FOOD! (my tan cousins are vegetarians)
PRESENT FROM THE LIN COUSINS! SO CUTE~ and they said they BRAIN
STORMRAIN!! hahah!!!
E ssence of chicken (stay smart)
L ongan (stay cute)
I ce cream cone (stay sharp)
C hocolate (stay sweet)
I cicle pop (stay cool)
A pple (stay healthy)
THANK YOU WORH you witty, smart cousins!!! GAM SAM HA BI DA!!!=DDDD
AND THANK YOU ALL WHO WISHED ME! =DD i know who you are.. unless you want me to name~
have a safe trip in japan, keat! and KL, jianyang! =DD
happie birthday to me!!!take a look out of the pictures!! i'm waiting for them actually! haha!!
not going to buy camera alrdy..
IT fair have got nothing of wad i want, as said by dearest daddy..
now.. should i go back to learn piano?? but i've got no more interest in everything about music.. no more confidence in playing music as i can never be as good.. it's hard to be wad i want to be..
no interest in life
after 'A's
dun wanna play.
dun wanna shop.
dun wanna study.
dun wanna learn.
dun wanna surf.
argh! but there's something i feel like doing but not many people can accept.
learn the teachings of buddhism(buddhism to me isnt a religion). it's what i've wanted to do this year ever since i stopped nearly everything that seem meaningless.
if i die in 2012, i dun think that what we learn in school, like chemistry, english and every other subjects is of great use in my next life, if i've got one. but i wish i would not have a next life. i do not want to suffer the fate of life and death and all the disheartening happenings in life.
emo post again.. paiseh!!
anyways!! birthday celebration with those coming to muah house!! cousins and friends! =DDD
因为我的一句话伤害了我一个好友,自己也不好受
在冲凉时,我就问自己,自己本来是这样的吗?
以前自己都不太重视友情,现在又那么的在意,人心一直都在变
似乎已经忘了我这18年来到底做了什么.差不多都忘得一干二净.
我做过的事有什么意义?
生活真的需要那么奢华吗?
又有何人会记得你所做过的事?
haiz!!
so sorry friend!
